• $75 for hosting (comes with WHMCS!) + ______.com from NoLimitsHost.info
• $2.99 for a matching .info domain name
• the rest is a secret …

So, I don’t know where I got the $250 from, but it’s under $200. I received a LOT of e-mails  concerning my last post, so I figured I had to post this one to clarify.

Within the past two days I have found a new host (I’ve been looking about three months now), and I have a list of things I’m going to purchase once a new host is gotten. It is about $250 but it is well worth it.

Firstly, Partyofme.com will have a new domain name. It will sound more professional and the name will not contain any word you can find in the dictionary. The WordPress theme will be designed by (a) professional(s), meaning they will be paid. Customer support will be paid as well.

I’m buying a new domain name. I’m keeping 6birds.net, but I’m going to put it on my new account as a redirect to the new domain name (as an addon/parked domain). I’ll save all of the pictures and a few pages. I’ll download all of the plugins I use. But I’ll start over with my blogs and comments. This new website and blog is going to define me more; I’m so tired of sitting on the sidelines.

I still owe $10 to a person that won a contest. I’ve got to create a new PayPal account and mess with the confirmation thing again and put money into it. I haven’t forgotten about you – promise.

In a way, the new hosting website will provide more space. It will focus mainly on free hosting and giving those budding bloggers and webdesigners a place with some space (least is 250MB and most with 1GB) to work. Everyone will get a cPanel. It will be better for everyone hosted with me.

In 2011 I will launch lovesmoothies.info which will redirect to i.lovesmoothies.info and be a smoothie community. You’ll see. You don’t even know the half of it!

I’m saving up at least four months in advance to have internet where I live. I’m looking at Hughes Net but I’m going to ask my mom about hers. I’m also saving up for a laptop, and really looking at laptops that come with either Verizon or AT&T internet so that I can simply pay that monthly fee and having internet virtually anywhere. Make sense? But I’m still looking. This may not happen until 2011, and I am okay with that. But that doesn’t mean I’m okay with not having a new laptop right now. Oh, NO! Stupid Dell and their old models!

Here is were YOU come in!

• What do you think of NoLimitsHost?
• Do you know anyone who designs WordPress themes as a service? I need their link.

However, the displaying of the blogs is not working.

When it should.

The phone just rang, and I just remembered I need to call my grandmother back. I guess I’ll call her back in about a few hours. I’m going home tomorrow.

Even though there is a snake.

Does anyone watch DeGrassi: The Next Generation? Well I do, and I missed the movie AND the five new episode that premiered this week. They are showing a new episode every six weeks. My previous blog about DeGrassi turned out to be true so far. I think that’s cool. Even though I’ve only seen previews … I don’t recommend it for thirteen year olds – I never have. All I can say about it is that it’s getting real with today. It seems like every couple of years they change it up a bit and add something deep and dark. When I watch it, I feel like they show every situation a teenager and young adult struggles with growing up. Then they show episodes on how it is solved and such, and the various outcomes. I have seen every episode of the previous season – minus the mini-sodes.

I managed to watch episode one of season 10 online, on a website I have bookmarked. Oh look! Episode two is now up!

Talk to you later …

Anyway, I’m sure many of you have heard of Rewind Host’s server change? I was never notified, because apparently I wasn’t on the list! With my bad luck, my account was one of the ones that got screwed in the process of the move – all the other accounts hosted under POM were fine. It ticked me off.

I couldn’t access my WordPress admin area, and it turned out to be a simple fix [or at least, maybe to them!] this WHOLE TIME!

Correction – in the attempt to give Shriya a cPanel account, her site is now down. It’s really frustrating. So I decided to go through and just do everything manually, including the FanUpdate entries. But it’s okay. I feel really bad. Because the problems with 6birds.net have been mirroring onto Shriya’s subdomain.

I’m going to try my best to have this done by Saturday, but I can’t promise anything, because I’m going home either tomorrow or Saturday.

I don’t even feel like blogging anymore.

A few weeks ago I visited her Facebook page. She is completely different now. This Godly girl who went to ACU last fall now has her religious views set to “I’m not religious” and her relationship status set to “Engaged”.

Now she is not engaged. I don’t know what happened; I didn’t ask.

But she used to hang out with Alice and I a lot. We did church events together. We were best friends.

I think she was pregnant but I could be wrong. I suppose it is not my business.

But she used to be a partier. She used to drink. She used to be someone else, and now she is that someone again.

I believe that seventeen year olds are on a completely different maturity level than college students. College students are ready for life; they are mature. And many of the guys are not what the freshman girls would expect.

I don’t think seventeen year olds should go to college whilst they are seventeen. They are not yet adults.

If my future children graduate high school early and are not as mature as I hope they will be, I’ll have them take a year off. Heck, unless they have a scholarship requiring them to attend school the same year they graduate, they will be waiting until they are legally an adult to go to college.

I don’t want to have to worry about statutory rape, or anything of the such.

I know this is slightly harsh, but it is true. I know that when I was seventeen that I was mature, but I was not ready for what life held for me yet. I was still transitioning from being a kid and being an adult.

There are some people who were or are seventeen whilst attending college and did so successfully. This post is not toward them – it’s not an insult to them, either.

What do you think about seventeen year olds in college?

It fucking irritates the Hell out of me that so many of my friends said they would not let college change them from themselves, and then that happens. It is infuriating. I hate it.

One thing I have learned after graduation is this:

Everyone you meet growing up and/or in high school will change into someone either good or bad. You cannot change them – only they can change themselves if they want to do so. After graduation everyone will go their own separate ways, and chances of ever seeing them again will be a million to one, no matter the situation.

I saw the friend I talked about in this post today. She left church early. I prayed for her.

Would I kiss him again? Don’t count on it.

It was in the rain but that does not make kisses romantic, no matter how well they go. This kiss was horrid; this kiss was forced. I didn’t really have a choice to avoid it – he sort of reeled me in and did not let go until he was through. And it was at church, too. In front of people.

Ugh.

I had told him I did not want my first kiss that way. He didn’t listen. He doesn’t listen, unless he wants to do so.

His lips were dry and rough, his tongue might as well have been playing tongue hockey with my tongue in my mouth, his hands were tightened around my arms – it was so not what I had EVER imagined.

Let’s just say I haven’t been kissed since then – by MY choice.

I know everyone is different. But still. I think I’ve been traumatized? But two, I don’t WANT to kiss another guy right now. I don’t care to. I will in the future. But right now isn’t the right time. I haven’t found the right guy yet, either.

You know, the guy that weakens my knees, makes me speechless and takes my breath away? …the guy that will love me for me and makes my heart race and race and race and race…

FAIRYTALE. I don’t think that exists for me. At all. For some people all that stuff I mentioned above exists (Georgina would be one example).

But I don’t think it does for me.

Anyway, it’s thirty-three minutes passed eleven at night (or twenty-seven minutes until midnight). I’m going to hit the hay (go to bed) because I am EXHAUSTED.

Goodnight.

Last night I gave a subdomain to someone who owns a webs.com account. When she gets her site up I’ll share with you the link so you can see for yourself.

I recently redid my about me page – I now have a page for myself.

I decided to keep my visitor content on here – opening up a subdomain, AKA another website would be too much for me to worry about right now. I’ll be adding some tutorials soon.

I’m uploading pictures as I type this up. Not from today – I’ll upload them later. I didn’t take many pictures. Just a few. It was Ruby’s birthday brunch for her first birthday at the park in Euless, and man, was it HOT. There was a bug hunt. I hid the bugs. Ruby helped. :] I think she had a lot of fun. :P

I can’t wait until I have children. NO. A KID. A baby – same thing. It won’t be for a while. But still. It seems so fun. BUT NOT YET. I have to get married first. Pft. I’m not going to be a single mom – all you perverted men out there can hang up the phone. I don’t respond to “booty” calls.

I didn’t have the guts to tell anyone in my dad’s side of the family that I want to go to beauty school. I suppose I’ll do so when I am finished? Or maybe on Facebook. Yeah. Sure. That’ll work.

I guess I do care a little bit about they may think of me. I mean, they’re into big success. I don’t care if I don’t make a lot of money. Happiness isn’t about the money, and money can’t buy happiness forever. I want to love my job.

My goal is to provide professional services to people for less, because not everyone can afford professional haircuts and styling, you know?

My mom likes the idea.

These pictures are taking forever to upload. There are about ninety-three, and not all of them (about five or so) will upload due to some upload error. So I’ll just upload them via FTP later?

Remember foot pets? Harley is standing in front of my foot, trying to get a few foot pets in.

This is annoying me. *stops the photo upload* I’ll just do it later tonight.

My mom bought me these cute, orange and pink and yellow plaid short shorts from Shepler’s in Mesquite, Texas. I really like them, and don’t want to take them off. They even have pockets on the back! =P

Over the next few days, weeks, months – however long it takes – I will be moving my “resources” to either a subdomain or a page for itself; I’ve yet to decide.

I’m no longer going to spend my time trying to impress people because in the end I’m not happy. I’m artsy, creative – I like to play with things and see what happens. I like to write. I don’t care what you think of this entry or of me, or if you don’t want to talk to me anymore because of my decision.

I am sick of stuck-up Barbie princesses commenting my blog without looking around for credits first thinking they know for a FACT what I did and DIDN’T do. You don’t, obviously. You commented my blog – you should have seen that the emoticon smilies came from kao-ani.com. But I guess that you were just SO FREAKING INTO BUSTING ME THAT YOU DIDN’T HAVE THE DIGNITY TO SEE THAT!!

I have been in a slump lately. I still go places every now and then, and I run errands. I am not depressed.

I at first used this blog for me, and I still do, however; I have slowly progressed into pleasing my visitors and readers. I’m not going to do that anymore.

I’ll write about what I want and when I want to, because that is what I want to do, and that is what will make me happy. So buckle up, because you’re about to get to know all of me really quick – one year.

By next July you will know my hobbies, interests, how I think, etc.

If you don’t want to, it won’t bother me. Just be warned that things around here are about to get a little more personal, and secrets are about to become a little more public.

I can’t promise whether you will love me or hate me during this process, but I’m prepared for that. I don’t want to lose any of my current friends that I have, as I love them dearly.

Who knows? Maybe I’ll inspire you; maybe I’ll somehow change you. If I end up affecting you in any way, contact me telling me how. I want to know your story.

Recently that dream has come back, and after talking to a lady at Regency Beauty Institute in Mesquite, I think I fell in love. They not only teach you cosmeotology but they teach you how to run your own business and market yourself as well. I’ve got this desire for my childhood dream so bad that I have a domain name in mind. I have even designed my future beauty shop in my head – it’s colorful, unique, retro and fun, yet classy professional. Aside from that, I’ve set aside an area for the kids to play and stay entertained.

I could be creative and work at a steady job – I can set my own hours.

And I can always go back to school.

If school didn’t work out or if another job didn’t work out, I would have this to fall back on. It sounds so fun, and the fact that I can learn how to style all of those hairstyles I’m dying to know how to do.

My mom has already volunteered to be my guinea pig.

I had to make an appointment with the girl, though, to go and tour the school. It will also give me the chance to enroll sooner if I still want to (after the tour), and it will only cost $25 instead of $125. I need my mom to help me with the FAFSA thing, too. Blah.

What do you think about this? Would you support me if I went through with it?

I’m not really interested in going because 1) I feel out of place, and 2) my aunt doesn’t really know me like she thinks she does. She doesn’t know what I like. She doesn’t know what questions/types of questions irritate me – I’m irritable. I’ll admit, that time of month is nearing my way but in the end, that is the least of my annoyances.

Shane, Dakota and I went to Wal-Mart to buy duck tape for a project my aunt had them doing with a window air conditioning unit. I drove back. Shane turned the radio up so loud it began blasting, and I turned it off because I could not concentrate on driving. Then they got out of the car when I stopped at a stop sign. And I drove off.

They shouldn’t have gotten out. -.- Not my fault.

Then Shane called me and asked me to come back and pick he and his friend up. Reluctantly I did so. That’s when they said I would be the one who got in trouble. First of all, my aunt can’t “punish” me. I’m nineteen, and the fact that I’m going home tomorrow won’t mean anything. Besides, what was I supposed to do?

So I wouldn’t. And if I did, I wouldn’t care.

I know this makes me sound as if I am stuck up, but people can’t really get onto me anymore for things. I don’t get grounded – what am I going to get grounded from? When people say they’re going to “ground” me it makes me want to LOL.

I wrote that at around midnight, lost internet and went to bed soon after. It is now twenty minutes after eleven, almost noon.

My mom should be here sometime between now and two o’clock in the afternoon.

You can say I’ve had my share of “embarrassment”. But is what Shane really said to/about me really classified as embarrassment? Maybe it’s dignity. I’m proud of who I am. I don’t care if they think of me as a killjoy for not buying them smoking devices since I’m “legal” or beer when I’m twenty-one. Just because one is able to buy those things doesn’t mean they have to or have to want to.

I was put down for staying on the computer for more than one hour. Most of the time I have been here I have been on the computer on this website. I said my blog is like my sanctuary on my list of things you probably don’t know about me. It’s true. I can be myself. I don’t have to pretend that certain things don’t aggravate me. I don’t have to pretend that what I do online is pointless or that I’m lower than dirt. I don’t have to hide myself.

I don’t have to pretend. I’ve spent my entire life pretending. 6birds is the best thing that’s ever happened to me. It’s all because of my dad.